Die Mannequin - a punk rock band from Toronto, Ontario, Canada
Sunday, November 5, 2006
Saturday, November 4, 2006
it goes deeper and deeper and deeper.
die mannequin, currently playing wee tour after wee tour, biraging together into a big long tour. everyone's asking when we're playing toronto. all our dates are on this thing we call nerdspace.....
it doesn't matter, but does anyone ever get this giant throbbing feeling that under this sickness under sickness etc, that you lose yr heart and yr head somewhere. i mean, like a polar axis, on one end being yr head, and one yr heart, both pulling back and fourth. i find myself swallowed in the middle somewhere. when yr heart beats louder than yr head, yr in loud company. fucking shut up sometimes. how do i know what's best for me.?. like an undeniable threat, i scare myself.. but aparantly, the head isn't such a good place either. thinking myself into paralyzation. can't move, speak, breathe, with pictures blasting through my puzzled view of ceiling since i can't fucking move.
they gave me pills for this. lot's until i found the "right ones". i'm pretty good with pills., knowledge-wise. i've been comatose through so many i should know by know. the doctor's always liked it, they said they could talk medically with me, like one expert to another or something instead of the usual "this will fix all yr problems" speech.
do they work.?. i don't know. some are so addictive, that yr instant happiness is really tricked endorphines and endopemines(spelling.) and yr body has triggered seretonen(sp) deposits. mine are so so depleated to almost gone they say.
that's what is going on when you feel happy. yr body has seretonen(spelling. sorry guys.). you lose that after doing a lot of drugs, presciption, and illegal. well, it depleats. drugs like 'e' and cocaine stimulate it. and then use it up. that's why you feel like utter sad sacks of shit the next day. you can find triptomine(SPELLING!!.) in a lot of shit though. turkey ( that's why you get sleepy after eating it.), and milk warmed up. something that happens chemically, but only when warmed up. that will help with anxiety.
so, if people coming off drugs need to rebuild there seretonen levels, how come, since there is pill form seretonen, that they don't just give out pills of that.?. it's a question i once asked an instructer of mine. but it just reinstalls pill dependancey in people, which is not a good thing to do when yr trying to get off drugs of all kinds.
ask anyone that has taken prescription depression, anxiety or both pills. if you stop taking them, it actually puts you back more below yr "normal" sad sack of shit state than you were to begin with. i've fucking taken down walls, ask my ex boyfriends. i stopped taking that shit after a rehab trip over a year and a bit ago.
don't you think it's weird that when yr forced into a center to get taken off one drug that you are receiving prescriptions for, and they take you off of it in the most inhumane tortuous way, just to put you on over 38 fucking DIFFERENT medications, over four times a da for most of them.
it's god damn stupid is what it is.
oh yeah, and then they send you back into canada, on a drug you need every day and are very much dependant on, and it doesn't even exist here yet. thanks for caring and looking into it guys.
so yr in the middle oif these axis'. getting swallowed.
how come i always seem to slip through these cracks. and when i do it goes deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper....
love,
- care failure.
it doesn't matter, but does anyone ever get this giant throbbing feeling that under this sickness under sickness etc, that you lose yr heart and yr head somewhere. i mean, like a polar axis, on one end being yr head, and one yr heart, both pulling back and fourth. i find myself swallowed in the middle somewhere. when yr heart beats louder than yr head, yr in loud company. fucking shut up sometimes. how do i know what's best for me.?. like an undeniable threat, i scare myself.. but aparantly, the head isn't such a good place either. thinking myself into paralyzation. can't move, speak, breathe, with pictures blasting through my puzzled view of ceiling since i can't fucking move.
they gave me pills for this. lot's until i found the "right ones". i'm pretty good with pills., knowledge-wise. i've been comatose through so many i should know by know. the doctor's always liked it, they said they could talk medically with me, like one expert to another or something instead of the usual "this will fix all yr problems" speech.
do they work.?. i don't know. some are so addictive, that yr instant happiness is really tricked endorphines and endopemines(spelling.) and yr body has triggered seretonen(sp) deposits. mine are so so depleated to almost gone they say.
that's what is going on when you feel happy. yr body has seretonen(spelling. sorry guys.). you lose that after doing a lot of drugs, presciption, and illegal. well, it depleats. drugs like 'e' and cocaine stimulate it. and then use it up. that's why you feel like utter sad sacks of shit the next day. you can find triptomine(SPELLING!!.) in a lot of shit though. turkey ( that's why you get sleepy after eating it.), and milk warmed up. something that happens chemically, but only when warmed up. that will help with anxiety.
so, if people coming off drugs need to rebuild there seretonen levels, how come, since there is pill form seretonen, that they don't just give out pills of that.?. it's a question i once asked an instructer of mine. but it just reinstalls pill dependancey in people, which is not a good thing to do when yr trying to get off drugs of all kinds.
ask anyone that has taken prescription depression, anxiety or both pills. if you stop taking them, it actually puts you back more below yr "normal" sad sack of shit state than you were to begin with. i've fucking taken down walls, ask my ex boyfriends. i stopped taking that shit after a rehab trip over a year and a bit ago.
don't you think it's weird that when yr forced into a center to get taken off one drug that you are receiving prescriptions for, and they take you off of it in the most inhumane tortuous way, just to put you on over 38 fucking DIFFERENT medications, over four times a da for most of them.
it's god damn stupid is what it is.
oh yeah, and then they send you back into canada, on a drug you need every day and are very much dependant on, and it doesn't even exist here yet. thanks for caring and looking into it guys.
so yr in the middle oif these axis'. getting swallowed.
how come i always seem to slip through these cracks. and when i do it goes deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper....
love,
- care failure.
Friday, November 3, 2006
die mannequin touring with G n R. STAGGERING EASTERN BOUND.
.staggering eastern bound...
... today is another date with road and i. quebec and i are spooning tonight, after i dated ottawa and toronto within the last 4 days or something. i think i'm going to ask Halifax to the prom. st. John.,............. marriage.?.. lest i not jump ahead of myself. cough 2.5 kids and .5 cat and dog.cough.cough...........
thanks to some inspiring fans we've me on the way who've said some of the nicest things. tiffie, randy, tyler, rebecca, and it goes on and on. people say the nicest things.
and the funniest. someone was pissed because my dangerous fingers did not receite the dorian, or mixo lydian scale five thousand times every song.... i'm so bad it's amazing where i end up starting trouble some times.
one flight up, two loads in and out. t shirts counted and re-counted. on stage i'm in danger to myself and others.
come out sloppy dilema.
- care failure.
die mannequin.
... today is another date with road and i. quebec and i are spooning tonight, after i dated ottawa and toronto within the last 4 days or something. i think i'm going to ask Halifax to the prom. st. John.,............. marriage.?.. lest i not jump ahead of myself. cough 2.5 kids and .5 cat and dog.cough.cough...........
thanks to some inspiring fans we've me on the way who've said some of the nicest things. tiffie, randy, tyler, rebecca, and it goes on and on. people say the nicest things.
and the funniest. someone was pissed because my dangerous fingers did not receite the dorian, or mixo lydian scale five thousand times every song.... i'm so bad it's amazing where i end up starting trouble some times.
one flight up, two loads in and out. t shirts counted and re-counted. on stage i'm in danger to myself and others.
come out sloppy dilema.
- care failure.
die mannequin.
Monday, September 25, 2006
How To Kill lyrics
(3:23)
I dont know what I wantNear The End
I dont know where I stand
between another man
I know but how bout you
I dont know what I want
so baby believe me do you want to go
no no doll, I know but how bout you
too bad darling now its done, Im dragging you down
take it all night baby we tried for so long now its done
Im dragging you down
I dont know where I stand now how bout you
I dont know what I want
I dont know where I stand between another man
dont know now how bout you
I dont know what I want
so baby believe me do you want to know
no no doll, I know now how bout you
(chorus..)..I know but how bout you
when Im lying next to you
Im fucking dead with you
I know but how bout you
too bad darling now its gone
Im dragging you down
take it all night baby we tried so hard now its done
Im dragging you down
take it home
good night baby we tried for so long now its gone
Im dragging you down
take it all night baby we tried so love now its done
Im dragging you down
I dont know where I stand now how bout you
I know but how bout you
(X2)
(2:47)
I only disappoint you
you only disappoint yrself
I know I cant control you
you know I cant control myself
Im over my head, in and out Im ahead tell me why
what are you waiting for
I dont want to know but Im already there, and again
I dont know myself
I dont want to know but Im already near the end
I have a curse because of you
I have a curse upon myself
Im going to reach and pull you
Im going to make you hate yourself
Im over my head..
(chorus..) I know I know Im not myself Im not myself Im not myself, I know I cant control you
but are you .o.k. when Im alright
(X2)..
Im over my head in and out Im ahead
Im over my head in and out in your head
Im over my head in and out Im ahead
Im over your head in and out Im ahead
I said Im over my head in and out Im a head tell my why
what are you waiting for I dont
to want to know but Im already there
and again I dont know myself
and I dont want to know, but Im already there
tell me why what are you waiting for.?.
I dont want to know but Im already dead. And again, I dont know my self
I dont want to know but Im already (x2.)..
near the end(X7.).
the end
How To Kill [EP]
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| Released September 25, 2006 Genre Alternative rock, punk rock, glam punk Length 13:52 Label How to Kill Producer MSTRKRFT |
All songs written by Care Failure, except "Fatherpunk" by Care Failure and Michael T. Fox.
- "Autumn Cannibalist" – 3:23
- "Near The End" – 2:47
- "Fatherpunk" – 3:13
- "Donut Kill Self" – 4:31
Die Mannequin
- Care Failure – lead vocals, guitar, bass
- Jesse F. Keeler – drums, percussion
- Recorded & Produced by MSTRKRFT.
- Art by Care Failure / Marc P.
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